Life

Wow!!!!! We are here again this year. This day, this time last year I would never have expected to be where I am at. Honestly, if you would have asked me seven years ago if I would ever have a life filled with adventure, the truest love ever imagined and friendships that would fill my longing heart I would have replied with a worried laugh. I would stop and think in wonder, how could that life be mine?? Well, it has!!!!!!

For those of you who do not know me personally I went through a very difficult life changing experience that brought sadness and a sense of fear and lonesomeness I cold never imagine. I was twenty-seven. I was alone and I had Lupus. Would I be able to be loved the way everyone deserves or will my disease run off every open heart that I would come in contact with? I thought at times who would love someone with challenges that may increase over time. Could someone look past the ever presence of illness and wrap their arms around me and carry my heart so carefully through the bumps and bruises of life? It took some time and a lot of contemplating in order to come to peaces with who I am and to accept I was sick but that did not mean I could not experience life and every ounce of it that had been destined for just me. Then one day I woke up and everything was so clear to me and I realized I am special and there is love waiting for me and a family of friends who would surround me and protect me no matter how close to the burning fire we would get. 

I removed my heart from its locked box in my chest and stitched it onto my sleeve. I wiped the sleep for my eyes that blocked my view of the word and stretched my body so that I would be able to accept all love headed my way and I waited. It did not take long but as the next few years marched on love engulfed me in its thin veil of beauty. It touched every inch of who I was and always had been. Sadness was replaced with laughter and lonesomeness was replaced with acceptance and joy. My life truly began and life was and still is an amazing adventure everyday I am here with my loved ones.