10,000 and counting..............

A world filled with uncertainty can be a very dark and scary place. Moments overwhelm us causing us to reach into the dark abyss ahead of us. Searching.....reaching for a hand to hold. All that is wanted is the simple touch of reassurance and gratitude whispering ever so gently to us to be still and let go because everything will always be alright and we will never be allowed to fall.

Finding my voice over the last ten years has been hard. It has been a scavenger hunt that has slowly been discovered in experiences and memories that have guided my path. Realizing I had a right to speak about something most keep private has been a mountain I continue to climb on a daily basis. Through my climb I have come up against ledges that have stopped me in my tracks. Labeled with shame and scoldings I continue to climb and my voice becomes louder and louder. I have felt the falling debris and I have had to pause and rest my tired soul but never have I ever lost hope. Every hurdle I have faced has built up my strength and allowed me to keep going........one movement at a time. 

Those who suffer in silence should suffer no more in the stillness of their days. All need a voice and those who are no longer with us need to have their memory and love shown until that last of us take our final breaths. I created this blog in a moment of suffering in silence. The darkness never lifted and days seeped into the nights. Pain lingered without refute and in this struggle alone I stood up for myself and others who suffer right along side of me in this vast world. I decided to scream at the top of my lungs to the world in the form of writing. Others were able to come into my world even if only for a moment in time but for that moment I was heard and others could finally start to understand what it feels like to live with a disease that others can not see or feel but so many of us suffer from. 

Two days ago I reached an amazing milestone........10,000 views in less than two years. All of them took a moment out of their lives to understand mine. I am forever grateful for each and every one of them.......from Russia and Japan to the support from others around the rest of the world. I believe in advocacy and for once I believe in my own voice. A voice that I promise to strengthen over time and that I promise will continue to fight for each and every one of us that suffer from something others can not see and therefore may believe does not exist. I promise to make you laugh, smile and even cry but most of all I promise to never give up until one day each and every single one of us can run and dance freely with no restrictions put on us from our very own bodies we have been given. 

“Dare to Be

When a new day begins, dare to smile gratefully.

When there is darkness, dare to be the first to shine a light.

When there is injustice, dare to be the first to condemn it.

When something seems difficult, dare to do it anyway.

When life seems to beat you down, dare to fight back.

When there seems to be no hope, dare to find some.

When you’re feeling tired, dare to keep going.

When times are tough, dare to be tougher.

When love hurts you, dare to love again.

When someone is hurting, dare to help them heal.

When another is lost, dare to help them find the way.

When a friend falls, dare to be the first to extend a hand.

When you cross paths with another, dare to make them smile.

When you feel great, dare to help someone else feel great too.

When the day has ended, dare to feel as you’ve done your best.

Dare to be the best you can –

At all times, Dare to be!” 
― Steve Maraboli, Life, the Truth, and Being Free