Everyday I wonder what you would have looked like. Would you have let out a large cry as the new world chilled you until the love of your parents could warm you? Would you have joined us early in great anticipation to start your journey? Would we be exhausted from nights of no sleep from looking at the tiny miracle born of a mere dream? All these questions surround me everyday and night brings the joy of dreams that are filled with you even though I have never looked into your eyes. So many unanswered question but one question has never been asked nor is it necessary. You would have been loved by the world in front of you. Seas would have parted when you dipped your tiny toes and birds would sing just to see you dance. Life would never have been the same......life has never been the same.
I believe you do dance. You dance everyday with your great grandmother as she teaches you to clog as she taught me. Soak up every ounce of her love because I long for it everyday. You sit on the lap of your grandfather who tells you silly stories about your daddy that even I did not get to hear. You hold so many secrets in your heart because I passed them on to you in the breif moment of time we were connected. A connection never to be realized here on earth but one that will be joined after the sun sets on its final day.
How is it that on the day you were to be born instead of holding you in our arms we are showing you another act of unselfish love by letting you go..........
Happy birthday my sweet child. Though I may have never held you in my arms I will forever hold you in my heart. Dance on every breeze that whispers to your heart. Chase the setting sun as it takes a much needed nap. Laugh in the rain and look at every rainbow as if it is your first for you have a view we each dream of everyday.
I love you to the moon and back, beyond the stars and deeper than even the Heavens can reach.
