A Year

1 year.....12 months......365 days......8,760 hours.......525,600 minutes.......31,536,000 seconds......a single year can define a life, take a soul and start us on a journey that will last a lifetime. I have seen the sunrise, crawled through days of exhaustion and bore witness to a heart felt within now walking outside of myself. New beginnings were created, traditions rose from the ashes and time was the healer of everything painful. I have seen life. I have watched my life as an individual fade into the abyss of yesterday. Rebirth was felt and purpose restored. A new balance was created and normalcy has been changed forever. A journey has begun and I see the future so clearly bathed in the soft glow of love, truth and breathtaking beauty.

The giggles that fill the empty space within our home has restructured time. Personal space no longer exists. A new shadow is cast in the light of day. The tininess that has caused a ripple effect in life has encompassed my heart. Her tiny fingers that reach for my hand holds my entire world. As she moves through the house learning to roll, sit, crawl and now walk days melt into weeks and weeks into months. You blink and an entire year has ran past you taking away with it so many firsts and reminding you of so many more to come. 

New meaning comes to words such as patience, friendships, family and love. There seems to be so much more definition in everyday moments. The sun wakes you as it does everyday. The daily routine starts but by the end of the day something miraculous has happened. You record first words, foods and movements. An everyday moment changes your life and you celebrate as if it is the best day everyday. Everyday is a gift with so much more to give than the days that came before. 

This last year has shown me dark days and bright nights. I have found faith in everyday heroes. I have embarked on a new adventure in self discovery.  My heart has had to let go little bits at a time to allow for independence to flourish. What a joy everyday brings waking up and following the path of life with this beautiful tiny soul. This new season of life changes the landscape you walk upon. You want to tiptoe so silently hoping to not disturb the passing of time for it moves so quickly and left in its path are memories to last a lifetime.

Purpose and beauty is not something you chase after. Running from life does not make you brave......it makes you lost. Dig your heels in and open your heart. See the beauty in the grass you grow, the family you love and the joy of today.  Happiness is not something you find, it is already surrounding you you just have to look up from where you want to go and truly see just right where you are at.